Maybe Someday

"He’ll never be mine. As much as that hurts to accept, I’m so sick of this constant, ongoing battle with my heart. I can’t take this anymore. I don’t deserve this kind of self-torture."

Colleen Hoover has created emotional roller coaster love story that will make your heart flutter. Maybe Someday certainly is not a typical romance. This story is unique, sweet, and heartbreaking. This author absolutely has some fucking words that make your heart in her grip. 

Wonderfully 5 stars

What I love about this book are the characters. They are not perfect, they have flaws because they are only human who have egoism. An egoism to protect who the loved one without realizing that their action hurt others. Maybe they have wrong choices that make you want to scream or beat their head, but we can know that their choice is understandable. A love triangle is not my thing, but I give this book an exception. Certainly I don't have regret read this beautiful romance story. 

The main heroin is Sydney — a beautiful, caring, creative, strong, independent, and fucking talented musician  who was betrayed by her beloved boyfriend. Her asshole boyfriend cheated on her with her best friend. She was left to pick up the scattered pieces.

And enter our hero, Ridge — a handsome, protective, caring, loving, patient, and deaf musician who love his girlfriend dearly

There isn't instant love in this book. The romance is slowly built through their friendship and passion in music. The story begins when Sydney just found out her boyfriend cheating with her best friend. In just an instant, she feels that her world around her shatter.  During her heartbreak, she meets Ridge, who has the same passion as her. There is something about Ridge that attract Sydney to him. They immediately become best friend and roommates.

Sydney and Ridge spend time together. They write music together. She becomes an important aspect in Ridge life. They share their fears and problems, but they are only allowed to be a friend. No romantic relationship involved. Why? Because Ridge already has someone who he love dearly. He has confident that he will only love one woman. She is Maggie, his girlfriend.  So, they are determined to keep it platonic, no flirting. But the heart has a different decision. The heart knows where it belong.

Sydney already knows that she can't have Ridge as a man. She doesn't want to be like her best friend who snatches a man because she knows the feeling. But deep in her heart she wishes that she could be with Ridge. 

Ridge try his best to be faithful to Maggie because the person who needs him the most is Maggie.

"I hate that my heart is wishing so bad that he didn’t have a girlfriend."

Without real realizing it, part by part Ridge's heart belong to Sydney's.

"I grip her waist tightly as my heart begins to tear in two, half of it remaining where it’s always been, with Maggie, and the other half being pulled to the girl beneath me"

Ridge knows deep down he chooses Sydney, but he can't leave Maggie alone because Maggie is a safe choice. He  also can't let go of Sydney, he want to own her, but can't. He feels jealousy, a feeling he never know exists. He becomes a douche towards Sydney and hurt her.

 "It feels like a low blow to remind me that I’m at his mercy"    -Sydney

"I was pissed.

I was jealous."     -Ridge

"I was having thoughts and feelings I knew I shouldn’t be having, and it was scaring the shit out of me. I’ve never had an issue with jealousy until now, and I don’t like the person it’s turning me into."         -Ridge

There is no villain in this story. All the character have their issues and emotional battle. We can't judge their actions because we would done the same in that position. I can feel their heartache and fear. I cry through the story because the story itself is amazing. I love the side character as well. Warren is a bit asshole. I have a thing for asshole guy. Despite his douche way, he is caring, loving, and faithful best friend. He cares about Sydney a lot, but he also loves Maggie in the nonromantic way. And when the time comes, he chooses to stand in Maggie side and said very hurtful words to Sydney. I want to bitch slap him and kick him in the ball. I know that he wants to do the right thing for Sydney, Ridge, and also Maggie. Still the words he uses on Sydney are hurtful.

“Do you just need someone to fuck you?” 

“Because if that’s all it is, I’ll bend you over the couch right now and fuck you so hard you’ll never think about Ridge again.”

This book is unusual. I want Ridge, Sydney, and Maggie find their own happiness because I love them very much. I also love Warren. His relationship with Bridgette is awesome. Bridgette is a little bit a bitch and hard to handle. She is a suitable match for Warren. Their combination just perfect, a bitch and an asshole.

I love Sydney very much. Why? Because it is not hard to love her. She is independent. She pays her own tuition although her parent is rich enough. She understands Ridge very much and supports all his decision despite that his decision crushing her heart.  

"I love the sound of her.

I love her. Everything about her. I love that she’s never judged me. I love that she understands me. I love that despite everything I’ve put her heart through, she’s done nothing but support my decisions, no matter how much they destroyed her at the time. I love her honesty. I love her selflessness. Most of all, I love that I’m the one who gets to love all these things about her"         Ridge

I appreciate their effort to remain platonic because the also love Maggie. A war against the hart is a death battle because we already know who will win the game.

"Hey, heart. Are you listening? You and I are officially at war"     -Sydney

"It’s not so easy when you’re trying to win a war against the heart"   -Sydney

The song "Maybe Someday" written by Sydney and Ridge is very amazing. I like that very much. I also love "Let it Begins" by Ridge.

Maybe Someday

Seeing something from so far away
Get a little closer every day
Thinking that I want to make it mine
I’d run for you if I could stand
But what I want I can’t demand
Cuz what I want is you

And if I can’t be yours now
I’ll wait here on this ground
Til you come, til you take me away
Maybe someday
Maybe someday

I try to ignore what you say
You turn to me, I turn away.

But Cupid must have shot me twice

I smell your perfume on my bed
Thoughts of you invade my head
Truths are written, never said
And if I can’t be yours now
I’ll wait here on this ground
Til you come, til you take me away
Maybe someday
Maybe someday

You say it’s wrong, but it feels right
You cut me loose, then hold on tight
Words unfinished, like our song
Nothing good can come this way
Lines are drawn, but then they fade
For her I bend, for you I break

And if I can’t be yours now
I’ll wait here on this ground
Til you come, til you take me away
Maybe someday
Maybe someday

The ending was really just perfect. Sydney, Ridge, and Maggie have their happy ending. I feel finally at ease throughout this roller coaster story. I smile at the end  because Colleen Hoover certainly did an incredible job. I don't have a single comment about this book. I am speechless because there is no words to describe this story. Amazing, awesome, cool, and emotional definitely are not enough words to describe this book.

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